currently super pissed off with my bro.

come on man.. just because i did pretty well for my O's doesnt mean anything.

u weeping there like a baby while i try to help but u just dont want any help.

wth la.. my maths is like shit leh. during my sec ssch life, i have never got an A in maths b4..

i always fail my maths or just pass with 50.0 or better abit.

i cried so hard when my friends do well and i have to retake numerous retests.

i ain't any study material.

u say i express show off.

but when did i ever say n.a cannot study?!

maybe i did say u did not perform academically well but i never say u are stupid.

i'm the stupid one.

i went through so much pain but i just never let u see.

why do i have to let you see?

i seriously feel like screaming out now.

i feel pathetic la.

come on.. lose your pride.

i just wanna teach u. F.O.C

u complain abt tuition, i can help u cancel.

actually u can not have tuition in the first way.

u just need to start studying.

i know it's not easy but keep trying and asking until u get it right.

the path to success is hard.

but the one who will reach there are the ones who are willing to take the pain.

no pain no gain.

maybe i will just laugh at this article nxt time i see it.

cos it's some random fight that i had with you.

my lil' bro.

studying IS stressful.

and we aren't geniuses.

stop saying i can understand maths well.

i suck at it is all i can say.

:<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<

T.T

roars.

it's a another new year.

it has been 3 days already but still i felt ytd was just the 1st day of 2010.

and.. school is starting for some people.. hahas!

attended the bursary ceremony award just now @ my school.

it's was kinda boring and tiring..

anyways, i received $350 for my bursary! WOO~

;D but stef never come cos she @ korea?

i didnt know...

after working as a waitress in the month of dec.

i now work @ some tuition centre making materials. ^^

pay lower but i like the timing. 10am to 6pm.

mon to fri.

yays.

i can go korea class le.

but i hope i will stay commited.

;)

all the best for everyone!

dunno whether results coming out on 11th? or 12th??

let's reminise the stressful ART period...

in here i dont even look like i'm really drawing lor... i look like i'm just posing.

wah, i didnt know my art work so nice.. hahhas. -.-

concentration...

lastly all the best for my fellow art students~

i scared for my art results.. ... ...

see you.

muacks.

IT'S DECEMBER THE FIRST.

oh no.

it's like the next month already,

and still, i'm here trying SO hard to find a job.

hais.

guess what,

i have already went to 3 interviews, filled up 8 application forms.

they said they would call back.

but no.

not until today.

this morning at 8 am, i received a call which i missed cos i was still asleep.

and at 11 plus i received another call from another number but didnt picked up cos i was bathing.

-,-

mhumps.

how pathetic.

i missed all the calls.

dont dare to call back.

cos i found another job opportunity that's much better,

with a better pay.

later gonna try.

wah...

i'm soon going crazy as a poor unemployed girl.

lol.

i ride my bicycle last night. alone.

the breeze was awesome~

i love the cool wind.

ahh~

until one of my pedal came out,

and i wonder whether i did let out a shiek.

had to walk my bike back home.

couldnt sleep last night.

let's take a look at my wallet! + room

hey what's this?? It's the CAUGHT YOU CARD. lol. i got nth T.T

see. my wallet is EMPTY! only got a few coins. and guess what this star worth $3. cos i donated to some ppl who say they were ex-offenders?... highly doubtful...

anyways, all the best to those finding a job, including me.

and trying to organise a class gathering for my primary sch friends.

=) GAMBATEI.

byes

oh finally i can feel so ever relax.

i keep thinking that Olevel is finished.

hahas.

well it has been so LONG since i last blog ;))

good job esther.

lols. -.-

anyways pack my room abit

i know what contribute to my messiness of my room!

my books!

now most of them are in boxes and plastic bags.

yays, my room's back.

feel much more cleaner now.

now sort of holidays but i severely broke.

i need to go out alot of times.

i long to go to bugis street, cotton on, F21... blah

but my pockets are so empty i can only feed myself.

=((

need to work desperately.

want to relax also have financial restrictions.

saddened.

okays shall relax thru the internet.

youtube~! <3

kays seems like i gotta post sth since im here on the computer doing sth already.

i just wanna say that im really disappointed in my prelims~!

i ... cant get it right.

i did tried. but i just cant.

i kept talling myself that cos of art then i did not do well.

i didnt had sufficient sleep and time to study.

but i dont think i should push the blame to art.

i think im just sb who doesnt have maths genes.

well. BUT I DONT WANT TO SUCK IN MATHS.

i want to prove myself WRONG.

and that i can score a distinction instead of a c6

i know i can do it.

hearing so many inspiration stories.

why cant me myself be one.

but seriously.

everything's bad.

real bad.

currently in a state of depression.

and bulging on junk and oily food.

sleep well esther. nights.

Well, im thinking that this would be my very last post.

yes, the final exam is really coming closer

and i doubt spenting time with my dear computer would be the best option.

as humans, we need encouragements.

and whenever i receive a card from anyone,

i feel glad.

the sweetness, tinkling feeling inside me.

it makes you feel happy,

simply bcos you know that somebody is thinking about you.

=)

and especially today, i was particular touched by sharon.

she made this photo album cum card for my spirtual bdae.

so sweet~

i know i must work hard on giving joy to others,

and to initiate MORE.

i must learn to plan things, and organise my life well.

after today, you wont be seeing me online. i hope. =)

i want to achieve at least 3 As in my prelims!

HWAITING ESTHER!

actually at this point of time,

i can say that i enjoy studying.

it feels so great to understand most of the content of the syllubus.

like cool~ why didnt i know so much in the past?? o,0

''Was i even studying last time?''

hahas.

and last of all, to all readers,

i will miss you, and work hard for the upcoming exams..

regardless whether it is the EOYS or OLEVELS.

just do your best!

P.S: to my computer, my watson card, bugis str, far east, haji lane, flee market i will see you aft my O's!

wait for me!

hey kpop lovers!

Go to sistic and vote if you wanna see koreanbands like super junior come to sg~!

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hmms. my internet now quite slow.

and videos and everything loading so slow.

and what seems irony is that i play more computer when i have exams

compared to normal days o.0

think it gotta do with the stress level..

when jogging today!

lols only jog for a bit.

i tink less than a km.

yeahs.

had a wonderful macdonald breakfast aftthat.

to reward ourselves!~ ;D

to all art students, JIAyous never give up.

do the best you can,

and at this time, just concentrate all your energy on art.

cos aft tues, we r free!

keep that in mind. =DD

studying with eunice tmr ;)

signing off~

Super Junior M - Super Girl

In case in dont know, Super Junior M is a sub-group of Super Junior which is based in China.

So the interesting part is... they sing in Chinese!

how cool is that?

I dont know but i find it very cool. lol.

like imagine ppl not speaking their native language. XD

today's paper was i think, manageable.

Well. i hope my maths has improved.

I felt that it was easier than the mid year. =p

And the fustrating part is that during the prelims.

Whenever i checked and realise a careless mistake,

the time stops.

-,- how cool is that.

but this never really happened in the past.. Ooo.

Im tired.

never took my daily nap.

Anyways,

TODAY's my 1st spirtual birthday as a christian! XD

Im glad to receive msgs and wishes from friends. =)

so nice and sweet.

esp. if from brothers, cos they dont nomally do this!

feeling encouraged. hehes.

okays, nights. 12am le.

sleep sleep.

haven study SOVA. X.X opps.

the computer is a BIG TIME distraction!!

boos.

new love!

lee hong ki from F.T island!

super cute guy <3<3

ahh~ the scandal series is so addictive and super sweet..

it captures the dream date btw korean celebrities and normal ppl.

so exciting and interesting to see how celebrities would behave in 'real life'

^^

this show really made me love him even more :p

lols

okays enough about stars..

been doing chem TYS =)

and spraying my art prepboard permanently every night.

i think i really learnt from ytd's friday church lesson.

now i understand.

hmms, anyways, nth much to say,

going off now.

lee min ho from BOF coming to sg on 10 oct

for promotion of the 2 nd etude house opening. =)

i miss jae beom oppa <3 T.T

im craving for my mars bar!~

the weather's HOT >,<

i hate this type of weather. boos.

makes me impatient and sleepy.

today mrs. Ang was saying that she was feeling pain

and felt like vomiting.

we were all concern. really,

her expression was painful and agonising.

kept turning to look at her.

and got a sneak peek at her husband.

we were like "hey quicky! mrs ang in pain!"

but of course he didnt hear cos he was so far.

=p

sorry for being HIGH abt her husband,

but yeah i was overeacting.

but i find it so sweet~

=)

finally i can touch my books.

seriously never study at all since last friday.

except ytd managed to do some maths.

im glad.

however, i am really saddened by the whole jaebeom's incident.

tears swelled up in my eyes when i saw the video of his departure.

i dunno why i am so attached to K-POP.

emotionally too.

well, i think i really love 2PM!

sarang rae!

and when i hear the song, again and again..

i feel so sad!

not high like usual,

but sad.

T.T

today's last episode of paris and milan!

okays, i currently like to watch some local tv variety shows.

like ytd's lee guo huang's fang xin kan shi qie? cant rmb the name.

and also i am a fan of pornsak actually.

i find him cute~ lols. shhhh. dont tell anybody.

and i really enjoy shows hosted by lee guo huang??

=D 43 more days to olevel?

JIAYOUS everyone!

this means 13 more days to caveman studying

and no COMPUTER!

X.X

i will survive!